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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 00:59

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

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What did i know ?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I have a bad reputation and need help. What should I do?

I have no regrets .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Put me off passion for life!!

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One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I was scared of men, in general

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I could never make a relationship work though!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

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Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

How is sex with a woman for gay men?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He knew the spot.

I write beautiful poetry .

How do I get access to a dog for bestiality? I am currently unable to adopt a dog, but I want to know if there are still ways to have sex with one without getting caught.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I waited trembling.

Why does it itch on my vulva, uterus, and sides of my vagina, but it doesn't itch inside the vagina?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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I was very sick at this time too.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

How can I watch porn on TikTok?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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I was seconnd youngest,

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I never cut or harmed myself..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He resisted the act ,that day.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

All the time i was locked up.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She found it foreign!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

But it wasn’t much.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Who then, do I blame.?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I think the readers, may guess!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Ive learnt so much.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But, we were locked up after school.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She loved him until the end.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

One cannot live in the past .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

So, i spoilt her more .

I will be 64.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

It was going to be , some day.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She wouldn,t have been !

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Im still living with it.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

And i lived it daily.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

But ive been too sick for many years..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Especially a lifetime of it.

She married twice! .

We were not on the streets..

Comes on , in middle age.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I don,t even have a pension.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Was to survive, this bastard.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

My family never makes their pension either.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I was 9 years of age.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

(And it was in our own minds.)

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

When she asked me how she looked .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We all went to grammer schools

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Would this be the day?

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

This is soul school!.

She was in good health!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

As i do to all so called friends.?

My life is so biszare .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I said to her

So whats the point in blame.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life